The doctor has scheduled an exploration into Jim’s lung on
Thursday (17Jan2013). They will try to look at the blockage, and take some
sample tissue for testing. The best case scenario is some type of infection
that can be treated and will go away. The second scenario is that it is some
kind of growth or tumor. They would then evaluate the next step. The third
scenario is that it is some type of cancer. No plan of action for this worst case
option was discussed at today’s appointment.
Although Jim is a non-smoker for 25 years now, the doctor
stated that sometimes non-smokers can develop this cancer anyway. Jim has also
been exposed (in addition to his own smoking for 10 years) to second hand smoke from his parent
when he was a child, and from his ex-wife while they were married. How
frustrating that secondhand smoke can so easily be avoided, yet people
selfishly expose others to their dangerous habits. The doctor spent a lot of time talking about secondhand smoke.
I am not sure how I am feeling right now. I’m a bit scared.
I’m worried. I’m confused. I’m a bit overwhelmed. I don’t like seeing other
people have to go through medical procedures and the physical and mental stress
that goes with those procedures. I’m concerned for Jim, of course. He must be
reeling from all the information that was just thrown at him (us). Jim is not
really the “sharing” type of guy, so he has not expressed his concerns to me
yet.
I often reach out to my Facebook friends when I am worried
and concerned. My Facebook friends are my system of support. Jim has asked me not to post on Facebook yet because he doesn't want
certain people to find out that he may be sick. Jim does not like fake concern
from people that normally would not give a hoot about him. So here I sit at my
keyboard… wondering if I should post this blog or not. If you are one of my (or
Jim’s) Facebook friends, please do not publicly share this information on Facebook. Please do not share this blog with people you know Jim would not want to know.
I guess for me, the emotion that I feel the most right now
is… alone. I feel very alone.
You are not alone, my friend. I am always here for you, no matter what. If you need me, please let me know. I will be praying for Jim (and you), asking that an easy solution is found and that Jim will back to his normal ornery self. I love you as though you're my sister that I never got to know!!!
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Thanks Cindy. I love you too!
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