I get a headache from holding back tears. Some
days it is very difficult to get through the day without crying. After a few
hours of holding the tears in, the headache sets in, which makes me want to
cry, creating a vicious circle. But, I have to wait. Wait until no one is home,
wait until everyone is sound asleep, wait and hope that the issue will disappear;
I wait until the pain of not crying outweighs the tears. Then the tears flow.
Quietly, not sobbing; the tears just flow like a faucet left on trickle. I most
often cry in the middle of the night. I go into the living room, by myself, and
the tears just start. I try to get distracted on my computer, but I cannot see
to type because of the tears. I cannot read a book, or check my messages on my
phone. It’s like a valve gently releasing pressure that must be let go. Sometimes
the headache is so strong. But, I have to wait, and the waiting is the worst.
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