Today was yet another reminder of what I cannot do for
Kristen. (Kristen is my special needs daughter.) She has a field trip to tour a facility that I can never afford to
send her too, and that there is no funding for… well, there is funding if I am
willing to fill out the overwhelming paperwork for AND to wait the 57 years
(literally, not just a random number) to qualify for… oh wait, by then she will
have aged out of the program. So, why jump through all the hoops to fill out paperwork,
which will probably be filled out wrong and disqualified, to wait on a list for
funding, which is longer than her life expectancy? I’m tired of visualizing Kristen watching Dora
for the rest of her life. I’m tired of feeling hopeless. I’m tired of crying. I’m
not looking for a pity party, I don’t need any comments, I’m just having a “day”.